her say.

moved!

2007-01-28T16:19:00.000+08:00

fyi : i've moved. perhaps i'll be back here but for now i'm at lj (:

link: http://crimsoncovet.livejournal.com

hiatus.

2007-01-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

HIATUS.

2007-01-21T21:04:00.000+08:00

i am so angry i can kill an elephant.

nyehahas (:

2007-01-20T21:14:00.001+08:00

yay! i love lime for putting elvin ng on its cover this month & i love leon for the wonderful time today (although we were mugging). hmmm (:

nyehahas (:

2007-01-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

yay! i love lime for putting elvin ng on its cover this month & i love leon for the wonderful time today (although we were mugging). hmmm (:

fucking pissed.

2007-01-19T15:45:00.000+08:00

just because you're given privilege to enter a cave doesn't mean it's yours. omg, there're so many people i'm disappointed in right now. when a respectable man comes & visit, use your brain lah can. not wrong, just stupid. squirming, the noise turned into the quicksand that buried me deeper & deeper.

when i thought the sun is shining through
you gave me lonely clouds
scar me with the broken glass
let me bleed under the gloomy sky

proud are we to be a part of tampines junior college (:

2007-01-18T22:36:00.000+08:00

vp made us sing national & school anthem twice today. a pretty good attempt to match the words on screen to the tune. considering it was my first time actually singing the school anthem. pathetic & a total disgrace we are. hohos.

but but but don't blame us ! the past p didn't think that singing school song is important. so yah (:

heard that the flushing system screwed thus there was some rationing going on & access to clean water to cebok is so difficult. stupid sah & only a few toilets have water which also rather pathetic considering the water drips when you turn on the tap full force.

I WANT WATER ! I WANT WATER ! I WANT WATER !

moodswing mode: on

2007-01-17T20:24:00.000+08:00

you know how they always say there's a light at the end of every tunnel (unless dead ends lah.)? i realize that my life ain't no some tunnel. it's lit up. brightly at that. but i just can't seem to reach out for that light at the end of the road. However hard i try to do so, my expectations fail me.

& moodswings are inevitable. but when they go overboard, it's called insanity. no, it's not pms as i'm dry. emotions are deadly weapons, i tell you. & i'm losing it.

my life is not mundane, but it's not not mundane. sigh.

the peak !

2007-01-16T21:58:00.000+08:00

& once again i'm addicted to chinese serials. elvin ng! aaaaaargh. "From today onwards i'm gonna woo you!" so sweeeeeet. that wasn't from elvin ng but yah, still sweet. nyeh!

dinner was great, miss leon boy so much. mwaaah. i don't owe anyone $ anymore, do i? oh & baby, thanks for the treat, weeeee. (:

all i ask for is respect as droplets of dew trickle down this terrain at night.

school blues ):

2007-01-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

omg. for once, i think running 6.4 is like the easiest thing in the world. wait. COMPARED to MALAY DANCE. seriously. i'm feeling so pissed for not being able to get the steps right, making me the prominent lousy dancer. hahas. not that i mind that much. i'm NEW. i guess i'm not made for this & have to work harder then the rest to stay on track. as some already know, i suck at this like seriously.

wells, i just hope i'll be driven by motivation thrown by LEON & meenamees, thus i shall perservere on (:

*cheer* WE ARE THE MEENAMEES, one two three four five six, MEENAMEES (:

oh yes, my tutor for elective gp tutorial hates me. she caught me doodling in her class & gave me looks. man, how am i going to face her for another week or so. shall behave tommorrow. aargh, i'm already so devastated by the fact that Mr New's not our gp tutor this year. yah & sometimes, i think teachers can be so bitchy (which makes you like wanna shout SHUT UP!!).

shall end off with this;

you can do ANYTHING in the world if you put your HEART into it but

what's passion when there's no commitment?

tell me.

2007-01-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

I think this song damn hot.

Tell me, what you thinking about
When you got me waitng patiently
And usually, I don't have to wait for nobody
But there's something about you
That really got me feeling weak
And I'm trying to find the words to speak

Boy, I got my eyes on you
Tell me what you wanna do I
can picture you in my room
Until the morning
I don't even know your name
Boy, I need to know your name
I'm hoping that you feel the same

Tell me if you want it I know you're gonna like it (I know)
So tell me how you want it (Tell me)
And you don't have to fight it (You don't)
Cause baby you're invited (Baby)
I know you're gonna like it (I know)
So tell me how you want it (Tell me)
And you don't have to fight it (You don't)
Cause baby you're invited (Baby)

photos i deem worth mentioning (:

2007-01-14T20:12:00.000+08:00

kring2 ada becah, becah beroda tiga, aku naik becah, keliling kota! she who lectures me but gives me her back

i miss PADANG !MEENAMEEES in padang (:i still miss them loads loads loads (:the 5 of us (: (credit to bere)i still miss the GPA peeps.& the directors that led us to victory.i missssss SYC <3yes, i do SOOO much ):mising those squeezing & paying 10 bucks to
get a minitooty piece of photo.i want you to stay that way baby, i loike (:i'm the shadow with a name. & i love my noticeboard, spot anything familiar? READ !

I SHALL NOT GIVE UP ON MYSELF.

i'm turning mad

2007-01-13T21:13:00.000+08:00

i'm getting paranoid, pissed, panicky, pressurized, parabola, panorama, proton, pantat. that's the state my mind's in. oh wells.

I LOVE MATHEMATICS.
I LOVE MATHEMATICS.
I LOVE MATHEMATICS. x 1million

hianati diri atau

2007-01-12T14:11:00.000+08:00

si bestari enggan berdiri
mempertahankan amanah peribadi
memperkuatkan jati diri
dan percaya diri sendiri
namun tahukah hala tujuan
atau harapan bagai kapal karam?
khayalan diteman bayu sepi
dengan mimpi langsai pergi
lalu kain putih suci dilayarkan
apakah perjuangan diabaikan setengah jalan?
alpa dengan segala pernyataan yang benar
menjadi pengkhianat diri sendiri
keliru...keliru...keliru...
rebah longlai jatuh terpaku

who cares about your opinion?

2007-01-11T13:21:00.000+08:00

(one thing i hate is offending people & i shall not try)

pretty random.

2007-01-11T00:05:00.000+08:00

the heart wrote it & not the brain.

an image blurred from vision
& sounds unheard afar
you don't care till it's not there
& feel its absence in the air
Hold it tight
Never let go of the tiger’s clutch

You try climbing
but it's all in vain
You try running
but you keep coming back again
for darling
every sense of love the heart traces
strike you like an avalanche

irfan & fifa day.

2007-01-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

a typical school day filled with fun & laughters. what can you expect from the MEENAMEES (we haven't settled on the spelling & no, wasn't me who created such name, hahah). cca open house was heart-breaking as malays are you know 'i-am-englishfied-therefore-i'm-not-interested-and-i-don't-like-fana-cause-she's-noisy'. hearbreaking, right? told cha.

so anyway, tarian was super duper wuper fun! a non-stop laughing session & sha rocks my socks! the rest of the girls too. yes, i know, girls, i suckat tarian & my moves are ~~abit~~ very off. haha, but it's okay, don't stop laughing cause i'm enjoying every moment of tarian (although sadly, lesser time to meet LEON ):)

ended the day with a migraine but they cured it (:

irfan & fifa in cibai uniform (:

sakai-ing!

joy-jumping. hoho.

at last, after a year, we get to see each other again. i miss yall like nuts (:

e-mails (:

2007-01-09T20:33:00.000+08:00

i realized it's a good feeling to open your inbox to find e-mails from friends from overseas. reading their thoughts, imagining what they were doing while typing that particular e-mail & how they were feeling at that point of time. then, its another feeling of joy thinking of what to reply to them.

& most of all, waiting for them to reply as it's the whole process all over again (:

SYC <3

hello mr/ms DOT.

2007-01-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

7 Jan 07, 17:37
.: honey, your boyfriend's got bad taste
7 Jan 07, 17:39
.: but then again both of you are ugly so yeah . this defies the law of "opposites attract"

weee, an interesting tag! i like. i shall take a little break from my work to blog this up.
sincerely, thanks for the info! that's a first coming from a stranger.

its interesting when one person pops out from nowhere and start judging my bf's taste & insulting me in the process. like i said a zillion times, Allah gave me my looks as i've done NOTHING to change it whatsoever. you're insulting god's work of art, not me.

you know as you grow up, DOT, you'll realize that beauty isn't everything. when people seek for someone to love, they try to find sincerity, honesty and only pure instinct can identify these qualities and not taste.

i mean, seriously, WHO ARE YOU TO EVEN JUDGE THE THIN LINE BETWEEN GOOD & BAD TASTE?

please look into the mirror and if you're as hot as micheal scofield (if you're a guy) or jessica alba (if you're a girl) then okay fine, you're the gorgeous thing. if not, just try to stay away from people's nose so that the room won't stink so much.

p.s. i don't understand why people have to be good-looking to be on top of the hierachy. and the ticklest thing is so what if my bf & i are ugly? like it matters so much. get a gun and shoot all ugly people arh. then people won't have to trouble themselves to tag people about how ugly the bloggers arh.

OH GOD & I THOUGHT THIS CHILDISH THING HAS BANISHED, its like deja vu.

to sum it all up:

leon: im sorry for being ugly dot. btw my name is leon and, if ur good looking enough to comment on others, stop hiding behind a ****ing screen name. this is her world so stfu. peace =)

(i wanted to ignore but its just so tempting)

perdayu (:

2007-01-06T16:24:00.000+08:00

i just feel like putting this up.

going for chalet soon. cousin's birthday. yay, i love family gatherings. unfortunately, there're still homeworks to be completed. this is irritating. i'm only gonna get my life back in 10 months time. okay. besides mugging, i'm going to join malay dance & make aisyah proud of me (remember babe, PATIENCE is the word for ME), and there's GPA to think about.

seen some of the J1s. generally, there arent many malays to make a malay kampung. i hope can fish some of them to join PERDAYU this year.

Melayarkan Bahtera Bangsa, Berpanjikan Seni Warisan Kita

confusion.

2007-01-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

please please make my life easier. PLEASE, i'm begging you.

adults.

2007-01-01T13:42:00.000+08:00

i hate it when adults start bitching about each other and assume things. parents; they always say that parents can raise a dozen kids but dozen children can't take care of their parents when they're old. and often with a sick mum/dad, comes conflict. conflict between siblings which are the easiest yet the hardest one to mend.

like malays always say; air dicincang tidak akan putus (however you cut the water it won't stop flowing).

nevertheless, its so painful to see adults bitching, sometimes about their own siblings, sometimes about their in-laws. it got me thinking anyway, how money influence your lifestyle. an example would be a filthy rich taitai won't stoop to cleaning mum's backside cause she's even disgusted by her child's vomit.

the irony is how they call this 'adult matters'.

welcome 2007!

2007-01-01T00:56:00.000+08:00

a new year, a new hope. haha. that was what darren said. and yeah, it got me thinking perhaps, this year will be a new beginning for me. i'll be a better person and i'll study harder. but then again, that's what i've been telling myself year after year.

right now, i'm in like i-love-everyone-and-i'm-missing-so-many-people kinda mood.

sigh.

i'm missing all my secondary school friends, especially 4E2. I neeeed to go for next class outing. been missing too much. oh and yes, WELCOME 2007.

forgive all my mistakes eh people.

and baby, it's NEW YEAR! let's be better students and MUG our ass off cause we didn't for the holidays. i love you (:

2007-01-01T00:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR (:

the girls rocks socks.

2006-12-31T00:59:00.000+08:00

on thursday we'd presents exhange plus movie day at feli's. glycel's pasta was damn syiok lah. love that woman! hahahah. it was so nice seeing them after so long, I LOVE YALL GIRLS (:

Pics, pics, more pics (:five (:

hot janjan!
see my cute rosy-cheeked friend!
some sort of scandal arh. check out shak's braces, no more gap babey!
bere's red-headed!
bere took this okay, like a pro. haha.once a sadist, always a sadist. lol.jan: why must i be the one always looking ugly?they love my wands, yays ! i forgot to buy myself one):
coolness !french plait club (:

a fun fun fun day indeed. and last but not least, in case you've forgotten how i look like;

IN SYC SHIRT (:

grant my wishes, rosey

2006-12-30T23:36:00.000+08:00

today was brilliant! thanks to baby baby baby!

lunched at ljs, deserted at b&j (chunky monkey NOT niceeee) and caught DEATHNOTE II! i love the ending. L died a peaceful heart attack. peaceful know, PEACEFUL! he's so adorable lurh.

was sorang-ed by baby for 2 loooong hours and thus used his cash to get myself a red rose (there wasn't blue) to give to baby so he'll give me. muahaha. this is called NO SHAME. we then proceeded to ecp. while we were happily looking out to the sea, the rose drop lah. mybaby's 1.50!

but it's okay, the rose went away with our wishes. haha. no, i ain't saying out my wishes( yes i'm greedy i made a few wishes), just in case they don't come true (:

why the need for ny's resolutions when only 1/100 are fulfilled each year? hmm.

sunBURST youth camp (:

2006-12-30T00:47:00.000+08:00

i like (:

SYC (:

I LOVE BAM !concentration. FOUR.beautiful ACEs.

Saz holding Kimmy down.manoat, me, khao awed by digi cam.

four!oh mama wo si huan, pili pala wo si huan (:
coolness (: tired?

night safari!

we surrounded singapore !

iven calls her airhead. hmm. haha. they got us fooled.
me & kimmy.
four !

four! let me lead.

man, i'm tired already. i'll add more soon (:

2006-12-29T19:20:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wish that to ask permission from mum is like tearing coupons.

me in a nutshell.

2006-12-22T12:18:00.000+08:00

hello everybody.

i'm currently internetless due to the 'crashing' of my com. yes, like one would agree very much, its due to my own misdoing. in other words, MY BAD. oh boy, i'm really pissed. i can't update as when i want even when i have a mouthful to talk about cause i'm internetless. yes, i can't do my research ('research') and please add my piles of homework too(hahs, excusesss).

and moreover, i lost a few thousands of my pictures in my com, including syc + indons photos. this is the worst aftermath of the 'crashing' of my com. like hello, a whole lifetime of memories. okay maybe not. a few god damned years though. and to add to my misery, i lost my songs. oh yes, and and and ALL of my documents. i hope NONE's important but i did save it in my thumbdrive.

oh BUT i lost my thumbdrive too. i know it somewhere at home, but the question is, WHERE?

currently too, i'm having the post-syc syndrome. i'm missing SYC! the people, the hotel, the FREE trips around singapore, the bus, the explaining about singapore, making loads and loads of friends. thank god it's not contagious.

i'd really like to update on SYC but as i've mentioned above, i'm internetless and my pics are gone to god-knows-where.

you know sometimes i think technology really makes my blood go up.

oh oh oh and doubledating with farhan & farhana (reena) yesterday ROCKED! hey i love both of you. charlotte's web is a must-watch too, really! but LEON WAS STILL THE HERO OF THE DAY. sweet lah you. but you'll be sweeter if you help me carry my pc to funan. i'll pay for the cab & you can pay for my lunch. muahaha. kidding!

no, but not about the lunch (:

yupp, me in a nutshell, after being MIA for so long.

OH WAIT DID I MENTION I MISS SYC?

oh i did. toodles.SYC <333

gold medal!

2006-12-10T10:01:00.000+08:00

Some people like Tao Li has her face splattered across the frontpage of ST because she has won a swim medal (a gold mind you after a gazillion years) for S'pore. And me? Still a useless piece of shit ):

And no, you're not supposed to agree with me. You're supposed to go, 'fana, you're useful, you're NOT a piece of shit.' Come on, repeat after me.

Perjumpaan MLEP & MLDSS (:

2006-12-09T20:21:00.000+08:00

let's congrats Sadiq(and his team) on the sucess of the TPJC MLEP & MLDSS gathering. weee-ness. The tarian & dikir boys were great and the sajak person rocks my socks. AHEMS. note to self : self-praise, no praise, fana.

(let's pretend my mucus didn't drip okay people, and i didn't wipe it)

and why the hell am i NOT lucky to win the lucky draw. they called out 10 and 11, no 12 know, and I have to be 12. cannot be 11. this is irritating. i've never won anything (lucky dip and such) in my life.

but i think i'm the luckiest to be able to go for SYC! there's one thing i hate though- the packing part.

got to go, i need to search for my magic wand.

(oh baby, i might be able to update cause there's internet cafe. just so you know)

ayam den lapeh (:

2006-12-08T19:22:00.000+08:00

Note: This post is very long and may be boring. So for the weak-hearted, do not read. i'll be posting up indon pics with captions soon (:

I was thrilled as flight TR222 of Tiger Airways left Singapore’s ground. Nevertheless, I was bombarded with worrying questions such as ‘will I miss my family and Leon?’ or ‘will I be able to adapt to the life there’ or ‘will the food be nice?’.

But heck! ‘Take full advantage of the trip and ENJOY’ was my motto for the 6 days.

Day 1: Padang

Checked in into AMBACANG HOTEL (the best we went to) and shopped at MATAHARI. We walked from the hotel to the mall and along the way there were these vans (or taxis) that honked to attract passengers. IRRITATING, I tell you. I was like covering my ears and shouted ‘shut up already’ into thin air. What an experience.

They should learn from Singapore! Misuse the act of honking? FINE.
Shopping was great though due to the fact that the clothes were not expensive and who said Indons dunno how to dress up? Haha. I constantly reminded myself not to overspend. Hello, we had 5 more days to go.

We then had dinner at this restaurant which housed a myriad of creatures including fruit bat and lizard.

Back at the hotel, sya and fah came over to our room (my roommate’s LINA!) and we laughed to White Chicks on HBO.

Day 2: Bukittinggi

Checked out, breakfasted at the hotel and went to Universitas Negeri Padang. Honestly, I did not see the objective of our visit because we weren’t able to see the whole campus nor sit through a lecture. We were allowed to bombard this guy with questions though, about the country and their language. For some, it was eventful. For others, yawns.

After that, we were on our way to Bukittingi. We paid a quick visit to this waterfall, Lembah Anai. It was so pretty and an orange butterfly actually landed on my orange/yellow shoes! I was like, “ EH LOOOOOK! GOTTTT BUTTERFLYY ON MMMYYY SHHOOESSS!”. But the others weren’t as excited as I was though.

Wells, I concluded they were jealous cause butterfly liked me.

We also paid a visit to this place where they make and sell songket called Pandai Sekek after lunching at Restaurant Pak Datuk. Telekong and ukiran stuffs were also sold there. All hand-made!

Anyway, I saw this woman making songket. Omg! Just to thread one piece of cloth takes 1 month. As the designs were intrigued, it took alot of eye muscle and will power for someone to master this art.

A no for fana (:

Checked in at Royal Denai Hotel after that. Wasn’t as great as Ambacang and it was abit eerie. The night, we went over to sya and fah's to share their bed! So anyway, we took advantage of all the free time we got to…SHOP!

This time at Pasar Atas. Like its name, it’s really atas (top), we climbed a zillion stairs before reaching the place. Tiring, or tiring? The place’s like Bugis Street here or Petaling Street at M’sia. The stuffs were CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP. Went mad lah can. And can bargain some more. ‘bisalah embak, 50 ribu ya.‘ hahah. And the shopkeepers are soooo nice! They gave us much discounts and weren’t mad if we just went into the shop to look. Good service, unlike here! Oops. By then it was raining heavily and thus we all went back to the hotel drenched ! Worth it though.

After bathing all, we went for dinner and came back to the hotel to watch a cultural performance by people from AKSI (art school). They were damn good! First was the musical part where they played traditional songs. Impressive. More to come though. They had this traditional dance too. The dance was so delicate! Each move were done with precision. And all of them were synchronized. So pleasant watching them dance.

Then they danced ‘tari piring’ where they used plates to dance. You need a lot a lot a lot of skill for this. And they also danced on broken glass. Stepping on those sharp scary object. I sat up front and could see the whole performance clearly. According to them this dance not based on magic but more towards the belief of Allah’s existence as they prayed before the dance.

An experience of a lifetime, I must say.

Day 3: Minangkabau Tour

Visited Eco Homestay and rice plantation. Before that, we went to this school where they teach the students how to sulam (threading thingy on clothes). The people there are popular for beautiful sulam on telekong. Refined sewing for hours, imagine.

I just realized, I haven’t mentioned the beauty of Indonesia. I was astounded by the mountains, volcanoes, clouds and basically, the whole surrounding when I first stepped into Indonesia. I find peace and tranquility there. Right there and then, I thought that I wouldn’t mind giving up S’pore life and live back to basics in Indon by being a farmer. A thought that will remain a thought.

Although, yes, we enjoyed the beauty and all of the rice plantation, it was sad cause we didn’t exactly get to see how they cultivate rice or even step into one. We were all by the side and were just looking at the people doing stuff (we didn’t even know what). Nevertheless, a beautiful place!

Lunch was at this restaurant where we sat on the floor overlooking pond (Pondok Flora Restaurant) The restaurant was on the pond actually. In or on? or neither? So anyway, the food was nice, IKAN BAKARRR (grilled fish?) Me and fah loved it sooo much that we ate everything except the bones and head.

We then headed to this castle, Istana Pagaruyung. Some of us had the opportunity to try out royal costumes. I tried on the costume for a princess. Perfect, I thought. Haha. I want to be a princess!

Day 4: Bukittinggi --> Embun Pagi

Checked out and headed to pasar atas to shop, then Lobang Jepang (Japanese Tunnel) which is a secret tunnel build by Indons POWs. The tunnel is cold and to know that many were killed for its existence, the temperature dropped further. A tunnel full of history.

We then drove up to Embun Pagi where its as cold as Genting! The place we stayed named Lake Meninjau Resort, overlooked a beautiful lake with clouds hanging around mountains as backdrops. Gorgeous. The saddest thing was that I missed the sunset which Cikgu Malek and Hazimah got to witnessed. When I watched the video, I was sooo jealous of them ):

The dinner was at the resort itself. On the way to the restaurant, me and sya laid down on the road and watched the clouds passing by. Caught also the beautiful full moon. In addition, the ambience of the restaurant was so romantic. Wished Leon was there.

That night Lina got mad at me (you know those conflicts between best friends). Thanks to sya’s brilliant (but damn hilariously stupid) idea, me, sya and fah performed a mini dikir to the ’mafia kami’ song. We managed to get Lina to laugh and pulled her out to play pool! Had to pay by game. Had so much fun! Hahas. I think I only know how to play tyco pool (:

Day 5: Empun Pagi --> Padang

Probably the most memorable for some of us as this was the first time we actually had human contact with people our age. SMA, a high school was where we visited. The students welcomed us with open hands and they were so nice! We were divided into groups of 2 or 3 and assigned to half and hour of class. Didn’t learn much though, I was sent to history class. What do you expect? The chat with the students were fun as we exchanged emails and numbers and they took photos of us as if we were caged homosapien at the zoo.

We then played a few games which all the Indons won, including basketball which I played. The girls were good, but rough. THEY SCRATCHED ME! So I complained to the usher. Haha, so farhana!

Oh and sya, being the most gorgeous one got the limelight! 'AISYA NO HP NYA APA?'. She was disturbed by the guys as they crowded around her to take pics and 'take closer look'. haha. For once, am glad not as hot!

We didn’t even get to say goodbye officially and off we went to ASKI, an art school. Something like NAFA. I learned how to dance minangkabau dance. It was sooo nice! I loved the dance. I can dance for you to see. Only the opening part arh. WHY? Suprise2, not enough time! Urgh.
Agenda for the rest of the day? Checked in into Ambacang Hotel and SHOPPING! Hehe.

Day 6: Padang --> Airport (HOME!)

Basically, the last day, we went on tour around Padang. First went to this beach called Pantai Air Manis where Malinkundang was cursed to stone by his mother. You know he went to travel, married a rich woman and didn’t admit an old rugged woman was his mother. We actually saw the stone rope all and the guy in some awkward position. Real! But dunno whether to believe, it’s a myth after all.

We then drove around. Yada yada and lastly SPEND OUR LAST A THOUSANDS! SHOPPING.

And then, time to leave the beautiful country.

An overview; a country rich in culture and beauty, where nice people live. Can't forget any moment there, even if I want to. I thank my friends for always being there although we fought to be in the centre of the bed (:

with much love - SPANGIL*

*spandex + gila

love.

2006-12-05T20:14:00.000+08:00

i love you, papa.

(and mama and the whole family)

i shall get some sleep first. toodles.

goodbye, Singapore!

2006-11-29T20:53:00.000+08:00

please please please let there be good food in indo. PLEASE (:

i'll miss you baby.

house jamming.

2006-11-28T22:49:00.000+08:00

my house has turned into a jamming studio(without soundproof system).strangers are invited over to play the electric guitars papa own. they're like strumming the guitar when I'M STILL IN BED or LIKE AT FREAKING NIGHT when it's quite disturbing for the neighbours.

papa, papa, papa. tsk tsk tsk.

oh yes, so do come over if you want a music treatment from papa. he's nice. you can jam too, without the drums. and if you wanna rent the electric guitars (we do have the amp too) for your jamming sessions else where, i'll hold on to your IC and its 50 bucks per day. the money proceed will to my retail therapy fund.

okay that's all. thank you (:

trim&fit.

2006-11-27T19:04:00.000+08:00

my aunt bought the 'shape' mag cause she was attracted to the free gift- a shoe bag! its nice and she gave it to me. yayness. so being a virgin reader of this trim&fit mag, i browsed through the pages and was pleasantly suprised by the content

the mag is somehow screaming out to me to EXCERCISE AND WATCH WHAT I EAT. man, this is tough. i guess mr. yazid was right, i shouldn't have quit track, look at how much weight i've gained (this does not mean i'm obese). sad. sad. sad.

fun fact; if your ring finger is longer then your index, then you are more likely to be better in running and such oh aaaand mum's wrong about putting on weight by eating after 7. in fact, its not the time of meal but the amount of calories took in a day.

but of course lah, chips at night a no-no (:

p.s. i wanna try yoga. one day. ya, one day.

msn woos.

2006-11-27T00:19:00.000+08:00

i dunno why people like to add you up on MSN and don't actually talk to you and when you start to try to start a convo, they reply with one word ans. typical teenagers.

gathering, i like.

2006-11-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

today's family gathering was a fun one. food, gossips, family issues, karaoke, babies, adult jokes, laughters, seeing my dad & his sibs interact, cam-whoring (them, not me unfortunately), bluetooth-ing the pics around, laughing at the ridiculous bluetooth nicks (i.e fanana, kecikyan, susu), etc etc.

so kecoh.

i want to be good at something for once. i wanna try cheerleading.

hear this yall!

F-A-N-A what does it spells? FANA! *doing the cheer clap with smagat*

but there's a few problems, i can't backflip, tumble, hand springs or neither can i jump like they do. i can only shake my ass. sigh.

i can't dance for nuts.

2006-11-25T20:32:00.000+08:00

went RELC for dance rehearsal (that doesn't mean i CAN dance). only for SYC (Sunburst Youth Camp) cultural night. ohmy. and mdm som said and her helpers are so nice! can't wait for 10th! weeee.

im like intimidated by them since most from top schools (and they're also good-looking, the girls), but i'm already loving SYC thus have to thank marya for introducing this camp. cheers (:

takeaway dinner outside taka was kinda fun too. hahas.

the show 'rhapsody' (s'pore + brunei) like merepek.

postsecret is very interesting.

and i malu-ed myself again by having sugar (from sugar cinnamon pretzel i ate) all over my mouth when i entered mrt without even realizing it.

before i go; if you have only a year ahead of you, what will you do?

huhu.

shock-ness.

2006-11-22T20:59:00.000+08:00

i was nearly knocked down by a car and then a dog scared me out of nowhere. how unlucky, how unlucky.

books.

2006-11-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

i want all of jodi picoult books, pleeeeease ?

let's celebrate malu day.

2006-11-21T22:53:00.000+08:00

macs for breakfast, meeting at school, airport to send nenek and wak aton off to indo (nenek is so cute) and headed to vivocity, yes, the whole family thus kekecohan cannot maintain.

i shouted at cikgu malek (unintentionally, of course) when he was at the door knocking. well, expected some moron to be at the door knocking away. and i have to be the one opening the door. one word- MALU. but did apologised. cikgu then bought us some food. can't you believe that. big heart he has. i think nothing, NOTHING, could be more malu.

even having mucus dripping in public, or accidentally going into guys' toilet or even not zipping up fly are as malu as this. really.

anyway, when i was on the train, this caucasian lady with a crying kid went up to the sitting uniformed boys and said loudly, "can't you read the sign? it says give up seats to those with kids." then she pointed to her kid and just sat down. i thought i could hear everyoen gasped. okay so one, she's like so direct. two, we singaporeans are not as well-breeded as we thought we are.

at least, aunt made a joke out of it saying people to give up their seats for she's pregnant (without apparent buldge yet). well, it loud enough to be heard but too soft for the ones who aren't keen on giving up their precious thrones.

channing tatum (:

2006-11-20T22:44:00.000+08:00

picked leon up after his fb and went to watch a quiet movie- 'a good year' and made him get me that lip gloss. okay boy, really, you can save all the receipts and i'll pay you back after i splurge on my parents and mamayam, okay okay? (:

and should thank farhan t for a splendid belated birthday dinner (haha, waited 1 month plus). THANK YOU SO MUCH :p havent seen him in ages and it's so nice catching up. next time, shall persuade him to double date. nyehahaha.

did i mention that i think welworth miller is not hot now? his nose is so big ):

but here, i give you, the epitome of hotness;

i wanted to post a pic of him naked, but his weewee is very small ):

p.s. don't bother by the fact that he's bi, we can have threesome, sure, no problem but the thing is, i'm bi too, so maybe a foursome (:

pick up lines.

2006-11-17T18:36:00.000+08:00

Do you believe in love at first sight, or should I walk by again?

of all pick up lines, this is my personal fav. beats the heaven one (did it hurt falling from heaven) (:

you sincere be my friend NORT?

2006-11-16T13:00:00.000+08:00

"cheers for the add do u happen to noe me? gee~ if u are nort sincere to add me or dont wanna be my frend juz delete me off kay.i want to make frends but nort make display for frends get it?"

saw this testi on someone's profile. was thinking, if i get that kinda testi, i wont be displaying it for the world to see. i dunno, it just shouts: HOHO I'M DESPERATE. then for the writer, 'sincere to add me'? HAHAHA. sorry arh, i find this testi very laughable.

YOU DUNNO ME DON'T ADD ME I DON'T WANT DISPLAY OF FRIENDS SO YOU DOWAN BE MY FRIEND DELETE ME OFF. BUT I STILL ADD YOU NOW SO CAN DISPLAY FOR A WHILE I GOT MANY PEOPLE ADD ME BUT I DOWAN CAUSE THEY DOWAN FRIEND ME.

nyehahah. im sorry, i'm just bored (:

so woke up to marvellous nasi goreng and milo. seriously, i need to get a grip of myself. i cant stand this life- sleep, wake up late, tv, eat, tv, online, tv and online. i do realize that i've got homeworks piled up at the side of my table.

but like, who does homeworks on the first week of hols? seriously.

and i just realize something, however air-headed my entries may seem, i feel kinda attached to this blog. like, i just cant let go. it's a part of my life.

FANALICIOUS (: (: (:

discover tranquility through dancing.

2006-11-15T18:38:00.001+08:00

You know, instead of spending on all those tatoos and all, he should use it to repair his teeth...

hahahah. HILARIOUS or what? leon can be so bitchy sometimes. but, if people need a nose job, that guy need a serious teeth job. his teeth are like worst then broken gate, i swear.

after sitting and eating without break at seoul garden's for 3 plus hours, think i might develop a new hobby- shelling prawns.

oh and caught step up again. i just cant stop drooling over the dance moves especially the scene on that isolated building and the showcase, of course. great chemistry. here, here! youtube is a great friend (:

mission accomplished.

2006-11-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

i can't believe i just spent my day away just by watching tv and going online to create this skin. my, oh my what a holiday.

anyway, spent the whole of yesterday cleaning up the post-exam mess. you know the million pieces of papers and useless books. and now i have my own mini library in my room consisting of novels, reference books and magazines (seventeen since 2003 only arh).

i am so happy i tell you, no more nagging from mama regarding my room! weeeee (:

oh, pictures from raya, finally. credit: SYAZAAAA(:

sneaky, sneaky.

sukma blend in with my house walls and huda step dont look camera.

at huda's.we doubted whether huda and her bro are really siblings.like a pro. man, im good at self photo taking. di was barefooted through the unbearable walk to farouq's, classic.
bollywood ?we also can, okay.

sparklersss!

i shall hit the sheets now, got a date tommorrow! yabedabedooo (:

turn ons and offs

2006-11-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

So after the boredom at library, Leon treated me dinner at chai chee seafood. CRAB CRAB CRAB! He's such a darling and thankfully, we have the same taste in food. I love durian, he does too. I love chocs, he does too. Eggtarts, chestnuts, STICKY CHEWY CHOCOLATE, sundae with EXTRA hot fudge and the list goes on. There's only ONE thing that he likes and I hate- Mc's fantastic burger.

Nevertheless, what a turn on <3

Hey darling, all the best for your op! Love you (:

Talking about him being a turn on, here about the guys; Turned ON, OFF or DM (Doesn'tmatter):

Is taller than you: ON
Is shorter than you: OFF
Wears braces: DM
Dresses Preppy: DM
Dresses Ghetto: OFF
Dresses Gothic: OFF
Has blue eyes: DM
Has green eyes: DM
Has hazel eyes: DM
Brown eyes: DM
Drinks alcohol: OFF
Wears glasses: DM
Smokes: OFF
Plays sports: ON (very)
Smiles a lot: ON (very very very)
Calls you just to say Hi: ON (very very very)
Compliments you: ON
Likes to talk: ON
Shy and quiet: OFF
Good dancer: ON
Smiles when you walk in the room: ON
Has brown hair: ON
Has Black hair: DM
Has blonde hair: OFF
Has red hair: OFF
Can make you laugh at any given moment: ON (very very very very)
Loyal: ON (infinity of verys)
Laid back: ON.
Plays guitar: DM
Plays piano: ON
Plays drums: DM
Sing: ON

Doesn't eat meat: OFF
Has a tattoo: OFF
has a lip ring: OFF
has tongue ring: OFF
dislike parties: ON
love parties: OFF
clubbers: OFF
virgin: ON
non virgin: DM
havE car: ON
no car: DM
stays home: DM
stays out: OFF
uses hankerchief : ON (sooooo classic)
no leg hair: OFF OFF OFFFFFF

blogging about jalan raya through boredom's eye.

2006-11-09T15:41:00.000+08:00

Movied STEP UP with birthday girl, Lina. A MUST-WATCH cause Channing is damn hot (hot bod alert) and of course, the dance routines were like jaw-opener. Goodness, how I crave for the ability to move my body and dance this petite ass off like how they do it in Justin's' My Love' video. HOT.

So anyway, am blogging from the library (and yes, SORANG while this fucking fat lecherous ugly man keep glaring) waiting for Leon to finish with his OP with his smangat classmates. My group, we did OP for like 30 minutes and that's it. It's a wrap! Hahs. Sheesh, am sickened by this feeling of just-want-to-get-PW-over-and-done-with-cause-can't-be-bothered-no-more. Can't wait for tommorrow though. Pop the champagne people, it's the end of PW (wells, for some not, don't be sad Lina!)

Jalaned raya with classmates yesterday. Pure enjoyment, I tell you. Let me see; walking under the highway instead of the overhead bridge, walking barefooted when heels tire you out, 'let's take picture' as a 'let's get moving' code', CAM WHORING, walking endlessly, watching MTV at almost every house, FOOD FOOD FOOD, sparklers at di's house and what i like most, squeezing syaza's tight forearm. HEHEH. Pictures to be up soon.

nyehahah, turkey man asked me for help and he said he like my dimple. Oh and and and bus driver 29 stopped the bus after a few metres from bus stop when I was jay-walking and when I didn't even flag for the bus. Princessy sey.

2006-11-08T01:00:00.000+08:00

Vivo-ed again with mamayam & leon, dinner with girlfriends at swenson(PS), waffled at gelare. Today was fun fun fun! Janice is still as bimbotic as ever, Feli grew hotter, Bere avoided me like a plague (only flu what, hehe) and Shak still relak one corner. Discovered more connections linking me and feli. What a small small world.

I want to go stationary shopping and get A levels books for revision during hols (ha ha).

monarchy

2006-11-07T02:44:00.000+08:00

Sick sick sick, literally and figuratively. I need to recover before Friday(OP!) Actually, before Wednesday (Can't wait to jalan raya, muahaha!). And please, someone knock my head for depending on chocolate to cure from flu. Stupid, i know. Remind me.

Haha, super duper wufer fun roaming Vivo (like a 2nd home i feel already) with Lina. Being fana, I spoilt suprises, but she still loves me, nevertheless. Lina loves Crocs (I said so. How can someone adore something so ugly, tell me pleeease) and she thinks I am made for Maternity House. The things we tease each other with, so much for saying I'm the lame one. -_-

Eliminate monarchy, input seriousness, involve your heart & soul, sincerity and commitment. And these are what I am adding to my list of resolutions for year 2007 (weee, can't wait to make a list of resolutions to break next year)

I keep putting my watch into the tissue box before I take a bath.

quiz

2006-11-05T00:06:00.000+08:00

tagged by Syairah! Name 13 of your ~~classmates~~ friends that you can think of now. dont read the questions below until you have written all the names of the 13 people! Enjoy this quiz.

1. Leon
2. Shakthi
3. Felicia
4. Berenice
5. Janice
6. Lina
7. Faris
8. Sharifah
9. Aisyah
10. Liyana
11. Izzah
12. Jacc
13. Jojo

#1.How did you meet 10?
Classmates for first 3 months, sat beside her on the first day of class and got to know that, like me, she likes pink, has shoe size 7 and an October baby!

#2. What would you do if you never met 1?
I'd be single mingle and drooling over unreachable hot guys who will never lay their eyes on me Then. there'll come to a point when i'll suffer from depression cause NOONE can love me like 1 does now (:

#3. What would you do if 2 and 6 dated?
cool. a first lesbian inter-racial relationship I know of, first hand info somemore!

#4. Have you seen 4 cried?
yeah sure, ZILLION of times, too much laughing gas that girl.

#5. Do you think 10 is cute?
hahs.

#6. How did you get to know 8?
classmates! someone who has been there for me to irritate.

#7. Would you ever go on a date with 12?
sure, why not?

#8. Whats 7's favourite colour?
he said, "it's blue i think." but i think he likes pink. he's gay (:

#9. What would you do if 6 confessed that he/she likes you?
skip this question cause she already confessed so.

#10. Facts about 9.
hot, nice ass, bimbotic and she loves me (hehe).

#11. Who's 4 going out with?
jody, a dog which she loves like nuts.

#12. Who's 5 to you?
used to turn around to hear her tell comic/movie/show tales and now she's one of my closest friend.

#13. Would you ever live with 13?
hell yeah!

#14. Is 2 single?
no, she is taken by ravi.

#15. What do you think about 3?
sweet, lovable, nice, pretty and i love her like mad!

#16. Whats the best thing about 5?
she can tell marvellous stories, engaging i tell you.

#17. What do you think about 11?
she's a random shit.

#18. Favourite memory with 2?
naming her boobies mary and sally.

I dunno who to tag. this is fun, try it (:

the guardian

2006-11-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

Picked leon up from work and went to lunch with his friends. Then leon ad I headed to GV. Irritated cause the covenant (hot guys) left single seats thus suggested DOA instead but he said the babes not nice.

His expectations must be quite high arh (ahems), since when HOLLY VALLANCE not hot? When she was wearing the bra while catching the gun that scene, not nice arh?

So anyway, watched the Guardian. Called Feli to check whether it's nice and she said it was. AND IT'S WORTH WATCHING. How can I forget ASHTON KUTCHER is in it? Slaps head! But you know what, I think Kevin Costner is hot for his age (he wasn't in rumours has it...).

Kevin Costner & Ashton Kutcher

Shucks. Malay exam! I almost forgot.

breathe; distracted.

2006-10-31T00:20:00.000+08:00

I can't do work when I'm distracted. I still can't breathe properly. I was so excited and my heart was beating super fast and suddenly it just skipped a beat after a call. No, nobody passed away. I'm still trying to breathe.

BREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEATHE, fana, breathe!

I'm sleepy now and I haven't done anything yet. Am so dead. Good luck to me for OP dry run tommorrow.

Cannot take it arh, she's damn bloody hot.

2006-10-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

curl me cute, PEACE (nurin style).

Haha. Bro taught Nurin how to say peace and sign yesterday. She was doing it the whole night and the funniest thing she can't bend 3 fingers to make the peace sign. So hilarious.

losing my voice

2006-10-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

She's hot, still. THE LEGS! THE LEGS!

Something to celebrate: I'm croaking, I'm losing my precious voice.

The J2s were like cheering arh 'YAY! FANA NO VOICE!' HAHA! Well, apparently, they THOUGHT that losing my voice would mean peace & quiet. FAT HOPE okay. As long as I'm alive & kicking (and if God permits), I'll be screaming and shouting to make myself heard. Try me (:

Basically today, slack slack slack and got back my result slip. Atrocious! At least the comments made by Mr Loke were interesting. The same throughout the years. Key words: bubbly, friendly, cheerful and all the synonyms.

I'm constant, I don't change (:

I think I'll frequent Vivo City. For now I feel like going to the zoo (and see AH LINA) (:

randommmm

2006-10-26T00:06:00.000+08:00

high walls & a moat,
flags & canon,
mask & facade
adorn in pretty gown
dance the night away
with that delicate lover
with fragile heart (:

rayaaaaa

2006-10-24T13:11:00.000+08:00

A quick post before I go bath & prepare to go collection. How weird at this age (SEVENTEEEN for goodnesss sake) I'm still excited upon Syawal's arrival to receive the green packets. Haha. And my smile stretch when I open to see red notes(or even blue, which is rare for me). Hahaha. Sugguh NO SHAME kan kan.

I don't feel the raya mood lah. It's like dead. It's been two years since Nenek Yah passed away. It used to be wake up early about 8, bath, dress gorgeously (this i expert), seek forgiveness from parents and then head to to Nenek Yah's house. Spent 2-3 hours there, eat, seek forgiveness then head to a relative from Papa's side where we gather as a family. My dad has 13 siblings I tell you and raya comfirm kecoh.

It's different now I guess. I miss her ):

Last year it was the O levels fever thus no raya but this year. Sigh. hahas. Perhaps I never even put in effort in welcoming Syawal well. I didn't even lend a hand in cleaning up the house or make kuehs. Lazy bum I am. Oh my room's still messy, believe it or not. Still post-exam mess.

Okay okay. Mama is nagging to ask me to bath.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all the Muslims & I seek forgiveness for the wrong doings (purposely or not) I made eh. Happy collecting oh and DON"T OVEREAT (:

Baby I miss you & your sneaky msgs really make my day <3

sick?

2006-10-23T15:53:00.000+08:00

I can't be sick on the eve of hari raya. NOOOOOOOOO.

migraine excitement- over!

2006-10-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

Just recovered from migraine. Leon's gone for only 6 hours and I'm on the verge of going mad, looking at the phone anticipating any movements by it and hearing it vibrate to see it's not 'leon backside' on the screen. TORTURE! Though I'm accustomed to 'lina darls' on the screen and THAT does cheer me up. Hehe (:

Anyhoooots, HOW, how you tell me, HOW to survive 10 plus plus days without him? At least, with the help of technology can text him and stuff. Yeah, like that will help. hahah. I will miss you with all the craziness of this so-called holiday.

AND THE GIRLS started school already (apart from shak) & I still miss them like hell! My mum's so gonna nag at me! ( "Holiday macam tak holiday je. Skola skola skola. Hari hari keluar balik malam. Papa kau mengamok baru tau!") PACKED. My holiday's has ALWAYS been packed due to BAND and stuff. At least this year, much more variety. OUTINGS! heheh. Am looking forward to THAT! haha.

I need more chic lit (wah, chic lit seyy ) novels. I hate the feeling of finishing a good read. Like when you eat a piece of cake that you like so much and takes forever to eat it cause you want to savour every moment? That's how I read, savour every moment of a good read. And sometimes I get bored reading the novel after a nice one cause I will think that the previous novel's plot much nicer and stuff. I'm like that. Queer.

Syaza said she's scared of the Mats with tatoos at Geylang. Well, it's such a norm to see them on the streets that I kinda forget the religion side of having tatoos. However I do agree with syaza that those guys are super scary lah. I always avoid looking directly into their eyes paranoid that they'll come over and beat me up.

Shucks, I can be such a nag sometimes. To end this lenghty entry. I just realized I didnt' really watched Aladin. Deprived childhood. hahas. But here, I can't help humming and singing to this.

I can show you the world

Shining, shimmering, splendid

Tell me, princess, now when did

You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes

Take you wonder by wonder

Over, sideways and under

On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world

A new fantastic point of view

No one to tell us no

Or where to go

Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world

A dazzling place I never knew

But when I'm way up here

It's crystal clear

That now I'm in a whole new world with you

Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights

Indescribable feeling

Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling

Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world

Don't you dare close your eyes

A hundred thousand things to see

Hold your breath - it gets better

I'm like a shooting star

I've come so far

I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world

Every turn a surprise

With new horizons to pursue

Every moment red-letter

I'll chase them anywhere

There's time to spare

Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world

That's where we'll be

A thrilling chase

A wondrous place

For you and me

I want a magic carpet so I can fly and see you anytime I want oh and i miss beign in CHOIR .

phto editing.

2006-10-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

When i came online, I freaked out when feli told me she was thrilled upon finding a software to edit photos & she couldn't stop. Guess what I was doing?

Editing photos.

Thanks to Iskandar, now I have Paint Shop Pro- the reason I didn't update for ages. It's addictive & due to that, was too engrossed to do my Oral Presentation which is due like next week.

Have I ever mention PW is a bitch? She is. URGH.

Lately, been sleeping alot, reading my best friend's girl by Dorothy Koomson (a very good read!), rushing through PW, hanging out with friends, spending loads of cash,MCS stuffs, struggling through parent's absurdity, keeping secrets and, and, and I think that's about all (:

virgin photo editor;

very pink, i loike (:

I CAN'T WAIT FOR RAYA TO COME!

In the mean time, Happy Deepavali! To shakthi especially (:

P.S; when I find the flow of words (oh and nicer personal skin!)), i'll come back to blogging (:

urgh

2006-10-13T21:24:00.000+08:00

I had a whole post on the calss bbq but someone pissed me off thus I don't have the mood to blog anymore.

()*#$&#$)&#$)&%_#*%&!@#&@*#*

i love my friends

2006-10-10T18:09:00.000+08:00

i'm so glad it's all over. yes, just so so glad. i'll love yall till death do us all part. sorry if i'd been a fucking bloody biatch & THANKS a million for always being there(not literally but there you know there) . promise will make more time and initiate outings with yall (although it's tough we'll make it through). tell me the next time i become that alien person, i hate it so much. even if we can't be THAT CLOSE, let's just be THIS CLOSE. sorry for being sarcastic too. okay okay. let's appreacite this wonderful friendship & pleeease at least pretend i'm still an important person in your lives lahhh hahaha !

I love jan, shak, bere & feli so so so MUCH <3

make sure i'm one of your bridesmaids (although I muslim girl)

the other 4e2 girls & guys too

and of course i love my other girls (lina, fah, izzah, sya, liyana. mwwwwwaaaah)

and yes of course irfan & gang (you know sakai all)

and my trumpetors

AND ALL MY AQUAINTANCES lahhh.

I APPREACIATE ALL OF YOU!

AND LEON (this i no need mention also can. goes without saying (: )

fionaaa xieee

2006-10-09T22:20:00.000+08:00

i look 80% like my idol (:

ahems, hahahaha. No wonder we got that connection (:

birthday

2006-10-09T01:39:00.000+08:00

Birthday, a celebration of you getting older; how exciting!

Yay! I'm older now. Woohoo! More mature, wiser, taller, sexier,prettier, hotter and fatter. So there, Happy Birthday!

Celebrating birthdays originated from the West, it's customary to celebrate the life outside the womb. If I could, I would celebrate life after I can crawl, after I can walk, after I can talk, after I can run, after I can....pee all by myself. Imagine arh, "Hey, HAPPY -YOU-CAN-PEE-BY-YOURSELF-DAY! Cheeers, everyone!"

I don't get it. Why do people celebrate the day when they get older? Why do you even care? It's just another year. Big deal. Like, aren't they scared of wrinkles & saggy skins. Oh technology has advanced, there are creams and lipo and lifting and being under the knives for hours while those surgeons happily cut your body liek playing plasticines.

The image of Extreme Makeover just ran through my mind. I can imagine the surgeon straightening the nose by using his hand to break it, using this saw-like thing to saw off extra fats and worst, cut your skin to adjust where your brows arh.

The thought of being cut up just made my mind do cartwheels.

But I still celebrate my birthday though. I'm a poser and I follow crowd. People celebrate birthday, I ALSO WANT! And I love the celebration so much. Nothing much to him, but ALOT to me (:

Dinner at lousy oyster restaurant: $52

Great movie : $19

Painting to rediscover our youths: $7

Much fun, wonderful company & lotsa love : Priceless

This year has been a blast. I love everything, baby cause now, I can look at the time and miss you at the same time (:

cupcakes

2006-10-07T03:46:00.000+08:00

I like pretty cupcakes!

But it's sad that I lack baking talent. It's not like I didn't try okay. I did. I baked cookies the other time & they were edible but soft soft. No, I wasn't baking chewy cookie.

Hah! How untalented & talentless I am. Sheeesh.

Anyone knows of good cupcakes shops? (Either get for me or tell me the place. hah)

In the mean time, let the eyes have a feast :

s

SO PRETTY RIGHT?

i hate ulcer

2006-09-30T21:16:00.000+08:00

I loathe ULCER, that ugly & malicious thing! So apparently, I just knew from Wikipedia that :

In some cases they(ulceration) are caused by an overreaction by the body's own immune system. Factors that appear to provoke them include stress, fatigue, illness, injury from accidental biting, hormonal changes, menstruation, sudden weight loss(I WISH), food allergies and deficiencies in vitamin B12, iron and folic acid.

Where's my bonjela? ):

exams!!

2006-09-30T02:23:00.000+08:00

Suprisingly, I managed to smile when I went out of that hall today after I screw up the whole paper, LIKE REALLY SCREW UP. Just hope my lengthy essay help. Come on, pass me, pass me. PRETTY PLEASE?

Okay, who cares about that when I'm gonna screw up my H2s too. Why did I want to bother so much about how alkane cracks to become alkene or how ketone can be reduced to secondary alcohol. Or even finding the tangent/normal of curves. Like seriously, who cares?

You know I could excel better in making music. I should have quit school to become a singer.

(haha, okay I made myself laugh there. dont blame me, its the pre-morn fever. actually morning already arh. baby, im back to work okay? INTERNALISE (:)

starve or stuff

2006-09-27T15:56:00.000+08:00

It's either you starve or stuff yourself (& not throwing up).

I'd rather choose the latter. Yes, thaks for being there period, so that I can seek solace from food, old habits don't die young. Too bad I'd to pay for some stuff & I'd watched tucker, if not, i'd have a tub of b&j in front of me now. Thus, the alternative, cadbury bar. Eating it with millions of ulcers lurking is NOT easy but I have to make myself happy (:

My room is now peach colour. So warm (:

linger with that pseudo smile.

2006-09-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

HADY MIRZA WON (:

& believe it or not, this marks the end of SI craze 2006, clearly telling people like me, its time to mug for promos which is in a week's time & totally not prepared for, oh my goodness!

It's heart warming to know that Singaporeans vote based on talent. Not dissapointing at all, although the best few were kicked out first like for e.g Gayle. Come on, we all know she's wayyy better then the guy with a q inside his name. She got the whole SI package. She's hot.

Anyway, wonder if you all realize that the top 10 lip-sync during the medley. SO UNGLAMOUROUS & some can't even fake it. An eyesore!

LEON ROCKS CAUSE HE SACRIFICED A DAY OF STUDYING TO WATCH JOHN TUCKER WITH ME. I'm whippped (:

gripe water

2006-09-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

I think gripe water (that sweet sweet water for babies) is miracle water! It got rid of the 'wind' in my stomach. Yon said it's 'in the mind'. But, whatever. Go away gastric, go away!

Went to collect my scholarship award from NTWU at D'marque just now. Wasted like bloody 2 hours waiting.

Curse late comers!

I find it atrocious for the organisers to state the time of event to be 11 while receipients HAVE to register by 9.30.

Like hello?

Obviously, SOME (not ALL) people will take their own sweet bloody time to come cause they think there'll be red carpet laid across their feet and everybody will be hysterical over their arrival thus start to ask for their signatures chanting away their names like the fans of Singapore Idol do.

Talking about that, I hope Hady wins (although unlike thousands, I don't really fancy him).

So yes,

Curse late comers!

There was another thing I couldnt tolerate. There, the GOH walking across the red carpet, waving jubilantly at the applausing crowd, and what this fucking rude guy did?

TALK ON THE PHONE (most probably with his equally brainless gf) !

Clearly, the emcee had announced, "let's rise to welcome the GOH, blablabla."(and there was dung dung cheh also). Have the basic courtesy to say to your gf hold on and pretend to be overjoyed by the oh-so-joyous occasion together with the other 500 or so of us can?

Oh, and he didn't stop talking when the GOH made the opening speech and all. BLOODY RUDE, i tell you. I felt like snatching away his phone, crush it into pieces and make it into confetti for my bears' wedding, for they dunno what's the difference between dry ice & plastic anyway (pls be mature enough to know that i'm being lame).

JUST SO RUDE.

Gosh, where did all that come from? Anyway, after that went studying with Yon. Wells, our study dates are effective to a certain extent. Hahas. We'll always end up talking/doing stupid stuffs or just eat and eat (okay, fine, ME eat).

Today, we bullshitted about alot of stuff and we were watching this mental guy systematically eat his food. Should try to go find for him if you're at the airport. He's always with a plastic bag (full of Singapore maps) & he's at staff canteen/ McD.

His steps to eat :

1. buy two bowls of noodles, use red plastic baggs as gloves, lay down on table
2. open up map, roll it and start 'sweeping' circumference around eating area
3. open up 3 maps and lay them nicely on the chair covering the seat
4. Eat, (couldn't realyl see him eatign cause his back was facing us)
5. when done, open up more maps and lay them on the table to lastly, SLEEP.

We thus concluded that he's Amathophobic. Eh, but to think of it, he's creative.

2.30 well spent for me (:

Meant to post up some of these pics eons ago but had a conflict with time (you know how it is, demanding and all) since now Yon's out thus less motivation to study (excuses, fana), here, have a feast:

damn sweet, don't you think, share2 food.

mcflurry + fries = what a delight!
me: who's always right?

leon : writer.

HOHO. funny yon.

and he thinks he's a real winner, hoho, try harder.

MR NEW!

2006-09-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

The other day Mr New told us that during his wedding dinner (which was about a year after his marriage), while giving that 'thank you' and shit speech, he requested people to donate so that he could buy blankets for those people up on the volcano who was suffering the cold due to the earthquake.

So yes, he did that & yes, he's married.

I HATE DOING POVERTY, I GET QUITE AFFECTED ):

beard man!

2006-09-12T21:04:00.000+08:00

i like the breads that he sells, spot the beard?

my childhood (:

hand me don ,ikea catalogue and gp

2006-09-10T21:37:00.000+08:00

I LOVE HAND-ME-DOWNS!

Those old stuffs are really good to wear cause they're seasoned. Hahas. And if lucky, will get those branded ones still in GOOD condition. for e.g. when I was younger I always get Osh Kosh BeGosh stuffs from older cousins. Eh that brand damn nice arh. I loved the stripey OVERALLS. Memories.

Moreover, MY good stuffs are also passed down to younger cousins. Once I'd this walking boots (you know those like timberlands') which cost like 100+. After wearing twice, I'd to give it away cause I couldn't fit anymore. Hurhur.

Oh and I just cleared my closet of BAGS (i loooove bags (: ) and gave them away to my cousin. That was when I realised I have too many pink bags. hahas. I used to have EVERYTHING PINK! From bags to clothes to even undies! Well, for your information, I still love pink. It's a sweet colour. IT'S NOT A BIMBOTIC COLOUR *flips hair. Anyway, about the pink bags, thankfully, my cousin loves pink too so it's all hers now, I'm left with zilch pink ones (:

Besides hand-me-downs, i love ikea catalogues (:

SHUCKS, I just opened tpjc.net and I found out that...

There'll be a vocab test! DAMN IT. Like 5 weeks worth of words, that'd add up to 125 words! How to memorise 125 NEW words with their meanings? Leon is skipping school tomorrow, can i skip too, mama? *makes my normal aka sweet innocent face.

SHUCKS. I HATE ~~VOCAB TEST~~ GP,

however hot I may think the teacher is.

tagged

2006-09-07T22:29:00.000+08:00

1. Do the following WITHOUT complaints
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you have completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with I have been tagged! then do this.

I'VE BEEN TAGGED by mimi (i like her boobies and ass)!
(again & i'm gonna do it to escape studying. heh)

Current Mood: SAD. hurhur, URGH, why you go?
Current Taste: Yogurt (:
Current Clothes: bowen pe shirt & shorts
Current Desktop: me and the drums at B&J!
Toenail Colour: clear?
Current Time: 11:17 pm
Current Surroundings: my room?
Current Annoyances: the urge for B&J, argh !
First Best Friends: nuraini? don't even know where she is now.
First Crush: i think leonardo dicarpio.
First Movie: jurassic park!
First Lie: went out to eat lunch instead of going to library.
First Music: cry-ables.
Last Crush: johnny depp. how hot.
Last Movie: tokyo drift. i need movies now!
Last Phone Call: leon (:
Last song played: hey there delilah, told ya i was stuck to this.
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: study dates got.
Have you ever broken the law: littering?
Have you ever been arrested: neh.
Have you ever skinny-dipped: fatty-dipped got.
Have you ever been on TV: GOT GOT! 2 secs of fame during chingay!
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: cute babies!
5 things you are wearing: bowen shirt, shorts, sweater. bra & undies?
4 things you did today: chem, chatted with old pals, talked to leon & watched tv. today was pathetic.
3 things you can hear right now: the fan, an SMS ringtone and silence (:
1 thing you do when you're bored: i go online & pest people to talk to me.

let's see who can i get to do this. ill choose the easy way out- the loves! ; feli, jan, jacc, shak & bere (:

hey there delilah ~

2006-09-07T17:43:00.000+08:00

Hey there Delilah- Plain White T's

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in new York city
I'm a thousand miles away
but girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Time square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me(repeat 4x) *

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song
I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way

Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blameHey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to

Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Leon made me stuck to this song. Sheesh, the thing he does. Winks (:

he loves me & i take advantage of that ):

miss seventeen party

2006-09-06T00:43:00.000+08:00

Am back from seventeen birthday bash! It was, err, uh, hmm, lackluster? I dunno why I thought so. Maybe because Aisyah was the solitary reason I was there & I missed 4e2 bbq. I AM SO SO SO SORRY GUYS, BUT I MISS YALL LIKE NUTS ):

The party was at Zouk and if you know me, I'm pure, demure & innocent (jacc used to claim she is, BUT she isn't. trust me, i should know (: ) thus that was like the first time I visit such maksiat places (in faris' words. tsk) and it wasn't as great as I thought it'd be. Maybe like leon said it isn't what it was supposed to be normal clubbing, underaged or not. But still, I expected more!

Maybe confetti falling on us all, just like snow.

Sudahlah.

Getting back on track, the truth is, I didn't enjoy myself. WHY? Cause Aisyah never win! hahahahaha. Bias, bias. But Leon made up for it. Weeee (:

And AISYAH WAS SUCH A GORGEOUS THING! She should have won lah. But like someone said to me, "She is still the most gorgeous in our hearts." So I guess, winning isn't all that matters! YOU GO GIRL!

Suddenly, I don't know what to say anymore. WEIRD.

post this up, MUST!

2006-09-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

(click to enlarge)

FOR OUR DEAR MR LOKE! HEHE. I JUST HAVE TO POST THIS UP LAH CAN. SO NICE. EHH AND SPOT MY FACE (S). ALOT. LOVES SYAZAAAA (:

LEON

2006-09-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

YAY! At last watched leon play floorball. Hahas. No doubt he was hot on that floor. Faris (you arh! cheat my feelings) sorang me to go Johor so LINA accompanied me instead. Thanks girl, you're the best. Shall accompany you ice-cream at PS. And maybe I shall ask Leon to help you get 22 & 19 contact number(botak heads are distractions!). HAHAHAHAS (:

i think he beats that one-year old girl lah can?

It's just nice to know that we're back to where we once were; to where we were like a pair of hands that fit and like the shadow to its owner. It's nice to feel the butterflies fluttering at the simplest words said, as if we are dancing in the sun's ray. And i know it's a road with no turning back, where the greatest things are ahead. When you look into my eyes and told me you love me with no lies, that's when I realize how I need you so bad.

And it's all about you (:

AARGH I NEED TO STUDY LAH FARK.

hoho. thanks irene, i ripped that pic off your blog . irresistable (:

4e2, thanks izzat & some

2006-09-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

I love them.
I love them so much
that I don’t wanna let go
memories of the past , of everything we had.
Oh please, I want them back.
Let them quench my thirst for life
with joy and laughter of their kind.
And please let me bask in their sun of love.
Don’t, I beg.
Don't let them walk away from me.

shadows of us, shadows of the past.

just like we used to be;

hold on to it while it last

the time we had its not free

eh, don't play2, i got boys behind me okay! alamak, they don't care sia.

look at the large sugarcanes i didn't get to enjoy ):

Photo credit : FELICIA SEAH <3

Argh I’m starting to miss 4E2 all over again! You know how songs or photos can like bring you to retrospect, evoking feelings of the past and sway you to miss them all over again?

Oh my oh my I just got to look at my blog a few seconds ago and I’m just so excited by the fact that ‘IZZAT managed to edit this skin (which I think is very pretty) for me. No, I’m not a dim at this! Hey it’s just copy and paste but I have no idea why the links I paste changes the posts font colour. Bloody irritating. So yes, a great shout out to IZZAT for offering his help. THANKS (:

Anyway, I was tuning in to Shan last night and an sms came in asking him: why do we say fall in love, when falling usually has negative connotations and all?

And I really like this particular answer given by another listener : We say fall as we can’t help it. But, we’re not falling on rocks, but on feathers.

Sweet.

hapyp teacher's day

2006-08-31T22:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to all the knowledge imparters & heart-touchers (:

Celebrations in school was great! There were two parts to it. One was in class when 06S24 suprised Mr Loke with truffle choc cake with 5 candles and a huge collage ( credit to SYAZAAA! thanks honey, i like it!) with our pretty faces surrounding him! It was so nice to see Mr Loke laugh. It's normal to see him smile (even when he's scolding) but laughing is rare. haha. The nicest of all was when he wanted to make a wish and we said a wish cannot be said out loud or it won't come true and thus, he closed his eyes clamped his hands together, bow and made a wish. I have a great feeling he reserved the wish for us. Awww, Mr. Loke is simply the sweetest (:

Then came the concert in the hall. The councillors, in my opinion, did a great job planning the event. Performances by asri (sexy mama) was just enticing, the 3 powerpuff bands were great (although some parts, loud for my ears) and the LTC peeps- Woohoooo, HOT STUFFS!haha. But what i liked most- THE TEACHERS' PERFORMANCES. haha. They can teach and they can dance their ass off! MR NEW was just so hot on stage, being so sporting and all. hahahahahahah. Oh and there was these two teachers who sang shan hu hai! WOW. They can sing really well!

Maybe if we start to potray our dear teachers as IDOLS and learn to appreaciate them as people who have dedicated their time to nurture thinkers (wah wah wah) like us, we will be more sucessful in life. Okay come on people stop worshipping HADY lah, go kowtow in front of MR LOKE!!

loner (i really don't wanna use the word sorang.)

Then then, met up with the 4e2 people! WOOHOOO. Caught up with the girls in the bus, and being me, I was so loud that the whole bus could hear every word that came out from my god damn mouth. hahah. Had a laughing spree with jacc and marcus while slurping my mango sunrise in the cold. hahas. talked about hairy moles and all. Was just so fun. Then to sum the day : LEON. weeee (:

pertabalan

2006-08-30T21:57:00.000+08:00

pose here (at staircase) arh! nice nice.

how about i bring this in for exam, cher?

lina : eh fana jgn step glam arh.

fana: tak step arh, dah memang!

come khalis, take my pic (:

12 bucks on chocs, worth it (:

Pertabalan was: A BLAST! The ambiance was great; love was in the air. Weeehee. Makes me wanna have a 'black & gold' wedding, or in elfie's words 'back & gor'. hahas. Thanks Asnu, thanks Sahu for being the hosts and you two did a wonderful job! I felt just so relieved when the audience laughed and sincerely having a good time (i hope they did, cause i did). hahas. AND THANKS TO EVERYONE THAT CAME! I was smiling at the attendance (:

I liked the video we made most. Hope everyone liked it as much as i do. The vid is just full of vibes and it took seriously all of us to put it together. Our first time working with each other and it turned out marvellous. Yaynesss.

And so, I got Faz's and Hanna job together with Elfie as Creative Directors. Weeeeeee. GPA next year, our baby. hahas. That came out wrong. Whatever, fana.

(post up pics soon!)

TO ALL JKs 06/07. I JUST WANNA SAY THAT I LOVE YOU ALL VERY THE MUCH. EACH ONE OF YOU. (weeeee!) WE WILL WORK TOGETHER HAND IN HAND (macam ndp song) LIKE ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY TO BRING PERDAYU TPJC TO GREATER HEIGHTS. LET'S DON'T SIA-SIAKAN USAHA JKs 05/06 OKAY? WE'LL MEET SHITS ON THE WAY, BUT WE SHALL BE STRONG (remind me this again okay.)

TO P & VP (ikz & izzah), I HOPE YOU BOTH WILL LEAD US TO GLORY! (heheh). TO MY OTHER FELLOW JKs(KORANG TAU SAPER!), WE SHALL BE GOOD AND DENGAR ARAHAN MEREKA. Ohhh yess! NAK SOME ENERGETIC, IRRITATING, FUN & LOVING TALKS? COME TO FANA & SHE WILL WITH HER FIREMAN CAP. SERIOUS.

Insya-Allah, kita boleh (:

Oh wells, how time flies. About 7 months ago, I was under faz's and hanna's wings as BABY DOC! hahas. SHUCKS. SERIOUS EH? time to study. i don't wanna lose this post because i retain.

melayarkan bahtera bangsa, berpanjikan seni warisan kita (:

i love you

2006-08-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

That's When I Love You -Aslyn

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn,
The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youl
l knowAnd when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway

having you here makes me realize that i'm over-dependent, i'm unfeeling, i'm unreasonable, i'll cry for no apparent reason, i'm insensitive, i;m greedy, i just can't get enough and i hurt the ones i love most.

i love being happy.

2006-08-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

Let's have a checklist on what I have to do today:

Written report
maths tut/assign
study for gp essay test

And let's see what's the time now. 11.13 pm. GREAT, how great. Another late night. Sleeping past 1 every night is making a panda out of me. Hahas, but have to perservere , a week more to sept hol. So looking for that- (24 x 7) hours to STUDY!

Today was just terrific! Met leon after gazillion days & dinner was nice. Missed that boy so bad. Before that had a dialouge session with Mr Hawazi Daipi about Bulan Bahasa and now my girls & I are stuck to pantun! We had such a blast. And I especially like this one :

Pergi zoo nampak berok,

berok in english ape,

muker liyana amat buruk

ada ke die suke ______!

hahahahahhahahahah.

I shall post up pics since I'm in good mooood (:

me and dilah at sea sports carnival
cute hat, dils! hahas

Oh so gorgeous girls I'm happy to
work with the next year or so (:

forget about me hating the world. I AM BACK.

ranranradom

2006-08-22T13:39:00.000+08:00

I'm getting sick of fucking bimbos.

and i'm starting to hate the world.

nad's

2006-08-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

Everytime I see this, I laugh. Thanks to NAD! haha. you rock.

Our first telemovie! Please get your VCDs at all available stores. Whilst stock last! (:

abang!

2006-08-20T20:04:00.000+08:00

Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like its been forever that you've been gone...

It's heartbreaking to see papa calling up abang but to no avail sometimes. Waiting day by day; fruitless. Putting in subtly without much emotions when all of us are here,into the question- where is abang? Hari Raya passed without abang coming to visit us. We never have pizza at home anymore cause abang never come down and make us some & the most heartbreaking is that other people know your half-brother more then you know him.

But, last night, I could see the happiness in papa's eyes, at last he met abang after so long (:

On a lighter note, cousin's wedding went well, Alhamdulillah. It's a nice way where everyone can meet everyone and yes, realize that some of us are even related in a way of another. I was basically hanging out with the kids (babysitting?), bought them ice-cream and such, playing with babies, making them cry, taking them away from their parents. Hilarious. RUNAWAY BABIES! hahas.

Food was okay. But what I liked most was the PUTU PIRING 'stall'. I'm a sucker at that. I ate like 5? hahahas (:

OH NO! I JUST REALIZE CA ASSIGNMENT DUE TOMORROW. AAAAAGH! *pulls hair

bad week

2006-08-20T11:11:00.000+08:00

This week had been hell for me. Late nights, tests, piles of homework and the new team that I'm in is getting hectic preparing for one important 'party'! hahas. Literature sucks so bad now that I think of it. Every Monday I go to school in fear cause I've not done my logbook. I'm going late for a cousin's wedding cause why? Literature.

& updating here is not an obligation anymore. sigh.

I apologise for being such a bitch everynight, sleeping on the phone. hahas, I feel bad but the week was just torturous, I need like a day of sleep. Tralalalala.

praying for a better week.

he's history.

2006-08-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

Saw an old pal today & what a perfect timing it was; 'That's What Friends Are For' played on my Ipod (AND NOW 'GRADUATION' PLAYING ON ITUNES. HELLO? I PUT SHUFFLE FOR A REASON! URGH).

Someone that I talked like milion words a day to, someone I called up every night, someone that 'cheered' me up when I was down, someone that listened when I need a ranting space, just someone that had been there for a while; he is all but an aquaintace now.

But ohh wells, he's happy, so what do i care right? It's not like I didn't try to make it work, I did. & what did I get? An unnoticable wave when I saw him a few times, a 'msg you some other time, i overshot my msgs this month' & not even a hello on msn for the last 4 months or so.

Losing a friend (like him) is not a big deal, they come and they go. I know what I should do: to appreaciate the people around me now. Friends, make me a better friend.

& oh yes, leon is a bloody bitch arh. He spilled hot tea on my skirt so I'd to wash and stand like stupid idiot holding my hand out, under the dryer, ALONE in my shorts. So much for trying to play game. But its okay cause he wrote me a note to apologise and YOU STILL OWE ME A B&J's treat (:

leon's bdae

2006-08-13T18:13:00.000+08:00

I am a happy happy girl (: (: (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE (12th Aug). Yesterday just rocked. Picked love up and gave his present, then went airport, where we ate at popeyes' and gave him the rest of his presents, then headed to Cathay to catch Tokyo Drift, which I had to say was rather NICE except the marvelous sound system which makes the vroom vroom vroom sound too powerful for me. But I LIKE (: Oh yeah, B&J at Cathay (& cookies cream shake!), my LOVE!

The best: FIREWORKS! I just love fireworks lah can. France's last night just kick ass but I liked the firework during CNY period better. Had hearts! The only thing I hated last night was the going home part. Terrible can. The streets at Esplanade was flooded with people. Thank god managed to get home early enough before my mum lock me out (actually she does that less often now).

12th Febuary & August, I love.

Oh and another happy thing, my prayers were answered! Alhamdulillah. I just wanna thank those who'd fought hard for me & I'll make sure that I don't disappoint yall. People, we CAN DO IT! I'm just just just so so so ECSTATIC. I can't wait to serve.

I have to catch up on a week's workload right now. But still, If you're happy & you know it, clap your hands (:

national day

2006-08-10T17:03:00.000+08:00

OH NO! I AM A BAD SINGAPOREAN, BAD BAD FANA. But but better be late then never, so here :

HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY (:

i am stupid, if you say so.

2006-08-10T00:50:00.000+08:00

Which hurts more? Your friends saying you're stupid or your own mother saying it to your face? If you don't already know the answer, I can tell you that the latter hurts so much that the former is just the most trivial matter on earth. Which mother tells her daughter that she's stupid anyway?

If going to a JC is not enough to make you think I'm capable, then why the hell am I working my ass off just so that I can make you proud? And when you watch that band marching on tv, you wondered how great they are to be able to play instrument while marching and how can they do it when it's so difficult. But do you realize that your daughter had been doing that for 4 years of her life? Why weren't you mesmerized by her ability then? All you cared about was she coming home late.

I was just about to blog about a somehow great day at OCC, but oh wells, thanks arh mum, you made my day.

and the moon shine bright in the clear blue sky & all was bright & gay dumdumdumdum (this so reminded me of obs ): )

supervriliciousmarveloustic!

2006-08-08T23:10:00.000+08:00

Meeting up with the girls was just supervriliciousmarveloustic! To sum it up; warm hugs, johnny depp, b&j, looooooong chat, iced tea, cam whoring, gloria jean's coffee with sofa & lots lots of love. Ohh! & GOOD HAIR DAY (very rare for me!).

Felt so loved, pampered & heard. 4 hours wasn't enough! I NEEED A DAY, at least. Anyway, it feels so goooooood to just talk talk & talk (with whatever preferred volume) with no one there to make faces or ask you to shut up. No one to say 'ok farhana, we get your point. can already?'. Nobody to ask you to tone down cause everyone's looking. NOBODY cares about all that cause all they wanna do is hear you. & with them, your lame jokes still deserve a laugh or two.

Buy tissues from the street auntie & donate to the smurfs equates to a goooood day; good karma baby (:

i like it when you cry, you little imp!

2006-08-07T11:31:00.000+08:00

the lil' monster & the good sister (and they rhyme)

He is such an idiot! & no, it doesn't run in the genes, I promise. Just so so so fun, I tell you to make him guilty and you know trying to make up for his wrongs. Of course he did it subtly. Come on, which person in the right mind openly declare his mistakes? A very very very honest person?

I think I'd mentioned before about my Ipod broke down? Anyway, it came back to life after a few days & that little monster have to spoil it again yesterday. But since I didn't spoil it, I just thought I'd have some fun.

So I told him to try to charge it till it's able to switch on, if not he's dead! So he went; switching off his favourite online games somemore. Surprise! He dragged himself to his room and about half-an-hour or so, he's still not out. So I went, "Syafiq! Come here!"

At that moment, it just felt so great. I feel so superior! Wooohoooos! Then I asked him, "So, can or not!?". There he was, standing in the shadow at the door, pathetically shaking his head. Muhahahahahaha! Enough of fun, I told myself. Thus, being a good sister I am, I let him off. That night he slept very early. I wonder why.

I'm smiling & laughing while listening to Smile by Lily Allen.

SUPREME COURT

2006-08-02T18:21:00.000+08:00

Visited Supreme Court! Apart from getting a stress ball as a souvenir, the learning journey was itself, a souvenir. My mind's clearer now about how the law stuffs are conducted. Moreover, I find the wig that the judge use especially cute.

In my opinion the new building is too modern now thus does not paint a picture of what I thought a court might look like. Let's face it, when we ride past the Padang, our parents will go, "that's Supreme Court." & you'd of course remember those weird carvings, old rock building with big tall pillars and this rock stairs and create an imagery of a court.

The new building is of course, NEW. With state-of-the-art technology, it's like walking through space when you're there. Do you know that the trials are done by video-conferencing & there is the Digital Transciption Service? Lawyers, council, witness have mics and when they talk into them, the transciptor would you know record down the trial and stuff. We even got to get the aura of the court, apparently minus the lawyers, accused and judge. OH and I like the escalator! Its long and AUTOMATIC. Woooots. Call me jakun, I am.

What a boring entry. Hoohooos.

Let's end this entry with some bitchy touch. The other day while I was walking to TM in my school U, there was this two malay guys in home clothes who purposely went behind me and went like, "Apa ni se kolah-sekolah ni sumer? Buang mase je.."(for what go school, waste time only). I find this statement speaks for the speaker himself; and I thought I was stupid.

Toodles, I shall now try to mug for chem test.

2006-07-30T19:33:00.000+08:00

Am(the spinster), hazi(the pervert), me ~~beautiful~~village girl, faea(the old storyteller?), marya (the crazy woman)

Had a mini holiday past few days (stop reminding me, I know am supposed to study). My stomach is still aching due to all the laughters we had during the preparation for this mini drama competition organized by NLB at Woodlands Library yesterday. HUHU! Had a blast! We only started acting out a day before & we did a marvellous job, I must say. Beating 2 schools, Xinmin Sec & Innova, we got first! That wasn't the happiest thing actually, I mean like we didn't even join to win. We joined cause Cikgu wanted us to. It was $40 KINOKUNIYA'S VOUCHER that I smiled for & of course, on top of everything, Pizza Hut's treat from Cikgu.

Cikgu just rocks.

After the fun yesterday, today, some of us went to Changi Village Hotel for the Penutup Bulan Bahasa. It goes without saying, we had fun, despite having that stupid cramp and all. I just realized from a someone who didn't care about Malay before, I have turned very malay-fied (*gloating). For this language month itself, I have been quite involved, suprisingly. Hahas.

Took alot of photos but the stage was badly lit (what an excuse, fana) so my cam captured alot of bad pictures. Nevertheless, some of the better ones ( :

the dikir boys were gorgeous!

the FOOOOOD was like deliciously delicious.aaah, time to practice that grace & etiquette!

We are a bunch of happy full people.

Invite us again for the next Bulan Bahasa!

DINAMIKNYA BAHASAKU ( :

asal pucuk pujangga songsang, bapanya ratu, ibunya suri.....

mum!

2006-07-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

Was on way home on 81 the other day when I heard a mnther-daughter conversation. For once, to say my mum's nagging is overwhelming an UNDERSTATEMENT! The daughter didn't reply much though cause she was reading some book. But poor woman that mum was nagging all the way from a stop before MJC to my house!

It was hilarious cause she was very worried about her daughter's obesity. She went rattling about how daughter should exercise then eat proper food. Even scolded the daughter for sulking when don't get what she wants (food). Basically that was the topic lah. But she went rattling for whole 30 mins.

I felt so stupid grinning from ear to ear when I had no company in the bus. Ahhh, that reminds me. My mum said I'm getting fatter lah! haha. overstatement!

"EAT SOMEMORE EAT SOMEMORE! YOU GO LOOK INTO THE MIRROR SEE SO FAT ALREADY! EAT SOY SAUCE SOMEMORE, SEE GOT BLACK STAINS ON YOUR FACE. EEEE NOT PRETTY ALREADY!"

That coming from my MUM. haha. I just love her lah, more each day (although she gets on my nerve all the time!). And she prepares me recess food lah (:

Dates are lesser;
the love as strong
Fly that high where the birds belong.

Allah!

2006-07-26T20:09:00.000+08:00

This just made me cry. Please read.

As you got up this morning, I watched you, and hoped you would talk to me, even if it was just a few words, asking my opinion or thanking me for something good that happened in your life yesterday. But I noticed you were too busy, trying to find the right outfit to wear. When you ran around the house getting ready, I knew there would be a few minutes for you to stop and say hello, but you were too busy. At one point you had to wait, fifteen minutes with nothing to do except sit in a chair. Then I saw you spring to your feet. I thought you wanted to talk to me, but you ran to the phone and called a friend to get the latest gossip instead. I watched patiently all day long. With all your activities I guess you were too busy to say anything to me.

I noticed that before lunch you looked around, may be you felt embarrassed to talk to me, that is why you didn't bow your head. You glanced three or four tables o! ver and you noticed some of your friends talking to me briefly before they ate, but you didn't. That's okay. There is still more time left, and I hope that you will talk to me yet. You went home and it seems as if you had lots of things to do. After a few of them were done, you turned on the TV. I don't know if you like TV or not, just about anything goes there and you spend lot of time each day in front of it not thinking about anything, just enjoying the show. I waited patiently again as you watched the TV and ate your meal, but again you didn't talk to me.

Bedtime I guess you felt too tired. After you said good night to your family you popped into bed and fell asleep in no time. That's okay because you may not realize that I am always there for you. I've got patience, more than you will ever know. I even want to teach you how to be patient with others as well.

I love you so much that I wait everyday for a nod, prayer or thought or a thankful part of your heart. It is hard to have a one-sided conversation. Well, you are getting up once again. And once again I will wait, with nothing but love for you. Hoping that today you will give me some time. Have a nice day!

Your friend, ALLAH

loserish coments

2006-07-26T09:19:00.000+08:00

I've never seen anyone this rude before; i believe, I'm saner compared to her (so you think lah huh how bad it is). It just pisses me off sometimes. Her every single movement is irritating. Not only that, she posses this pretty ducky voice which just makes you wanna slap her. But other than that, she's okay. You can't hate her though, she'll just get on your nerves occasionally (often, in fact). So yes, I was so irritated that I was controlling the balls of eyes from rolling at her face just now. Fana, patience. Fah, sha & i have been wondering how those guys can stand her. Secretly I think her voice has been transmitting orgasmic rythms to pleasure the guys. Hahars.

Jokes aside. Things have not been going well lately. A fact that I've known all along- I crumble under pressure. I've been thinking, is crumbling a sign of weakness? Surely not, right? I mean it doesn't mean I crumble & I stay down forever. You need time to build up again & this doesn't mean you're weak. It just mean you're getting stronger.

This year has been a lousy year (BUT I'm trying hard to make it better). Like for e.g. the Scholarship (now, now, don't think I'm not over it. IT'S LIKE SO BASI ISSUE, but I'm just using it as an e.g.), a role in manifest, good grades for CTs & etcs. These I considered failures on my part. In my opinion failures are just turning points. Learn from it & these are what that makes you stronger. Another load of my shoulder yesterday; if its meant to be, then it is, cause what I know for sure, I did my best. If it's not, then it's Allah's will. The questions posted to me were just daunting & stab my brain real bad. I just feel so small.

I'll stop right now. PE. Oh wait, I need to think up of excuse to skip. & now, I pray.

Loser dog

2006-07-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

"ohhh my daughter have never failed math since primary school..." This woman said while looking at my horrendous mid year's result.

oh just shut up you loser. Stop comparing my grades with that daughter of yours(i love her lah & i don't care who do better). FUCK OFF okaaay? I have never failed mathematics too(okaay maybe once for A maths) & JC's just tough for me okaaay. AND FOR YOUR INFORMATION, YOUR DAUGHTER IS TAKING H1 MATHEMATICS(that's the reason she got D anyway) & ME, H2. SOOOOO NO USE COMPARING. Idiot. Anyhoooots, I did better than her for prelims & even Os. SO SHUT UP. Stop asking me for my grades. Cause I do not give a damn how your daughter did. SHE PASSED ALL, SOOOO?

On the brighter side, YOUR STUPID WORDS MOTIVATED ME TO STUDY. THANK YOU ARH. SOOO MUCH. Tell you what, I shall beat her flat again, I tell you. AND I WILL GO UP TO YOU AND SAY, "HAHAHAHAHAHAH, LOSER DOG, I GOT BETTER THEN YOUR DAUGHTER!"

Ahhhhhhhhhh. The feeling is just sooooo nice. Okay I shall start NOW (: